Archive for May, 2008

Tattoos and Kat Von D

May 30, 2008

Isn’t she adorable!? I never did catch not one episode of LA Ink, but I’ve heard lots and lots about Miss Kat Von D! I was telling my girl Ray (who has this BEAUTIFUL flower on her shoulder!) about how I want sleeves and she mentioned Kat Von D so then I had to go and google her and now I’m all too pumped up to go and get more and more tats!

I don’t care about practicality and the such! It’s what I want. I’ve been drawing stuff out since I got my wrist tattoo and I’m going to keep sketching until I can get my whole arm done; crazy right?! Anyways, in addition to always wanting to open a boutique, I’ve always wanted to have a tattoo shop! For my final project in school, I wrote up a business plan for a boutique then did one for my tattoo shop! I look at it from time to time; but I just look at it lol!

Anyways, she’s my inspiration for the day so I thouht I’d share! I think I need to go visit my homey since grade school, FashionKitty, out in LA so I can go get inked up by Miss Kat Von D herself!

I’m sooooooooooo excited!!!!!

May 29, 2008

Guess where I’m going to do it up fabulous!

 

 

😀 I can’t damn WAIT to get there!!! I’m meeting my friend in Montego Bay on Sunday at her parent’s newly built home! 🙂 I am beyond thrilled!!! I need some sun, sand and Caribbean Sea!!!! All I’m going to do is frolick in the water, lay out, tan and relax!!! Sunday can’t get here fast enough!!

 

…..in where I confess…..

May 28, 2008

…or rather share with you a dark side to me…

*deep breath*

*sigh*

Here it goes…

I, *B* Fabulous, am…

B.U.L.I.M.I.C. – yup, you read that right. binge, purge – that’s me!

I do it for control

I do it because I want that pizza but I can’t have it because I’m not a size 2

I do it because I want to

I do it because I’ve been doing it since the 6th grade

I hide it from my family…until once when I was in high school, and I was doing it everyday, my brother figured me out – I told him not to tell anyone, he didn’t. Then one day my mom asked me if I was doing it because she caught me in the basement bathroom…whatever, I didn’t stop.

I do it because I see my mother shove abnormal amounts of food in her face then wonder why her working out isn’t paying off

I do it because living on a 1200 calorie diet, or less, makes me hungry sometimes and sometimes I want a cookie…but it doesn’t stop there. then I have to binge, purge – vicious cycle

I do it because it’s easy – except one time I was at the dentist and my dentist looked me straight in the face and asked, because she could tell what I was doing – so what; binge, purge, continue

My methods have matured as have I, become more advanced if you will for more accurate uhhhh purging purposes

I do it for one week out of every month…more if I’m stressed or whatever

I can’t believe I’m writing this, but so what

You’d never be able to tell, since I’m not super skinny etc.

It’s so bad for me, but I still do it

Kind of like an addiction, but for me it’s part of me

That’s as personal and as deep as I’m ever going to get on this blog.

I’m out

*B*

It’s OFFICIAL!

May 24, 2008

I’m hanging up my 4 and 5 inch heels and ending my tenure in the mix of the party scene! I just can’t do it anymore! I was torn ALL day about going out tonight to celebrate my friend’s birthday. I knew I DEFINITELY wasn’t going to drink, for obvious reasons. I was also torn because of the dresses I have; they are all short, low cut, etc. I just went to Bible study last night and one of the previous lessons, like a few weeks ago, was modesty. It’s stuck in my head and I seriously evaluate each item of clothing I wear now! I was torn because I shouldn’t be spending gas money to drive to DC. I was torn because I had ulterior motives in wanting to go to this new spot; to see a guy…i know, silly. I was torn because, well, I was just torn!

So, I get there, we have our table, there is this GINOURMOUS bottle of Grey Goose and a bottle of Rose. It literally made my stomach flip flop just to see it there, illuminated by the light in the ice, ugh! Alcohol! I didn’t even want to drink the mixers; I got water. I was not enthused with the crowd; I just didn’t get it. I wasn’t feeling the music; I stay listening to my Gospel so all this new music makes my head hurt. I was also not enthused by some of the fashion choices of the men and women alike; do they own mirrors or have friends?!

Anyways, needless to say, I was soon bored and just wanted to jump in my truck, drive home listening to Cece and throw on my new Juicy sweats! So here I sit, safe, thank the Lord, in my cute apartment, watching senseless television – or is it watching me? –

I don’t know, I’m just over the whole party scene. It’s definitely not what it used to be. Which is a good thing because otherwise it would be harder to make my decision to stay gone from the mix. Plus, I just know there is something really HUGE that God is working on in my life and me running out every weekend to party etc is just.not.cool.

I need to focus, listen, learn and do what God wants. I need to get back to doing the things that bring true fulfillment in my life; singing, writing, reading, focusing on my fashion career etc. AND I can pick up way more hours at the PT so I can continue stacking paper so I can make my next move with not a care in the world!

Anyways, that’s it. Just thought I’d share. I hope you all are having a fabulous and SAFE holiday weekend!

*besos*

B

My God is a Good God!

May 16, 2008

He is SO AMAZING! Without Him I don’t want to even THINK about where I’d be! Yo! My life, man, my life has forever been changed since September 2007 and I will NOT look back! I love my God! He is my strength, my strong tower! I hold, CLING to His unchanging hand! Lord I give you the utmost praise and SHOUT HALLELUJIA!!!!!!

I am overwhelmed with goodness and God’s grace right now! My God has blessed me! And He keeps blessing me! My life is His to use, FOREVER! I will live my life for Christ; it’s the only way to live.

I thank my heavenly Father for breaking me and bringing me to my knees to give Him praise! I have been broken and am being built up into a wonderful Christian woman that God wants me to be!

Gone are the things I used to say, things I used to do! My God is good! My God brought me through! When I had NO money to pay rent, God had me covered! Oh, the Lord is good to me! Better than I’ve ever been to myself!

I am overjoyed with the blessings the Lord has bestowed upon me! Forever will I praise Him!

 Go to my site, Today God is First for an awesome, inspiring and uplifting Praise playlist

Drunk Driving…

May 11, 2008

…don’t even think about it! Yes, we have all done it before. Thinking to ourselves, yeah, I’m good, I’ll get home. Yes, I’ve said those words…nah, just give me my keys, I want to sleep in my bed tonight…etc etc. Well, I beg of you, PLEAD with you…DON’T DO IT!!!

I lost my 8 year old cousin……………..8 YEAR OLD COUSIN!!! TODAY ON MOTHER’S DAY! TO A DRUNK DRIVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY AUNT LOST HER 8 YEAR OLD BABY TODAY ON MOTHER’S DAY BECAUSE OF A DRUNK DRIVER!

A DRUNK DRIVER SMASHED INTO THE BACK OF THEIR MINI VAN AND TOOK THE LIFE OF MY 8 YEAR OLD COUSIN……….

I JUST GOT BACK FROM THE HOSPITAL…SEEING HIM LAYING THERE, LIFELESS, WITH STITCHES ON HIM, MY 8 YEAR OLD COUSIN IS DEAD, DEAD BECAUSE OF A DRUNK DRIVER….

JUST, PLEASE, RECONSIDER WHEN YOU ARE OUT DRINKING…USE SOME DISCERNMENT AND GET A CAB OR A DESIGNATED DRIVER.

I FEEL SICK.

UPDATE – ARTICLES AND VIDEO ABOUT MY COUSIN JOSHUA ADAMS:

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/05/12/AR2008051202567.html?sub=AR
 
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/05/14/AR2008051400920.html
 
http://cfc.wjla.com/videoondemand.cfm?id=14623&ref=home

http://www.nbc4.com/news/16244441/detail.html

Big things, therefore, HIATUS

May 5, 2008

I have a HUGE deadline coming up for this project that I’m working on! I’m so excited about it! Anyways, in lieu of said deadline, I’ve got to be on full-time grind mode! I shall be back once my project has reached completion! I can’t wait!!!

When I get back, I will post pics and stories of Gold Cup 2008! And I AM ULTRA EXCITED about GLOW IN THE DARK TOUR this Saturday!!! YAY!!! I’ve got my outfit!!!

Ciao!

*B*

I have to share!!

May 2, 2008

I just woke up from one of my most vivid dreams EVER!!! We all know while on cold/flu/allergy medication, dreams can be weird, and down right scary! Well mine went like this:

I was in some wharehouse type setting with a bunch of people I knew, young and old. There was this huge movie screen or something showing off the latest gadgets…stay with me. Anyways, one was this crazy robot, scary, life size thing that went around destoying the world. Well, a few of us nervously looked around at each other like, ummmm that’s not cool. No kid, NO adult needs to play that game. So then the next presentation was up but something weird happened.

This is where things got real crazy!

So the video screen or whatevr that was there vanished and there was all this commotion outside and it got real dark, real eerie. All of a sudden I felt this strange presence; not a welcome one either. A VERY uncomfortable feeling.

Again, there is all this weird commotion and people start getting scared as we hear loud “footsteps” coming towards us! Most of the people run but quite a few stand there, in shock and awe, like myself. One by one, the people around me start, i don’t know, fidgeting and acting weird, possessed almost. Their eyes got wild, their mouths open in fear, it WAS CREEPY! Still I couldn’t move! Finally it got it one of my friends standing next to me and I watched up close as this, this thing overtook her body! IT WAS SCARY! Again I just stood there…STAY WITH ME

SO then all of a sudden it gets quiet. I guess this thing is ready for me. All of a sudden, and thi sis where I started to feel pinned to my bed, helpless, unable to move, and it was the DEVIL!

He asked me why am I not scared. I told him I’m a child of God and God will never leave me nor forsake me! He laughed. I continued. I shouted at him Psalm 23. He continued laughing. I started singing my priase songs, whatevre came to me, mostly Cece Winans as that is the only cd I’ve been listening to lately.

So he stood there, while all the others were overtaken by the devil. I stood there, on the Word of God, shouting Bible verses, that I didn’t even realize were in my heart and singing praise songs!!! WOW!!! It was an awesome feeling. And don’t you know, that old devil just up and walked away! Hallelujia! You can’t mess with a child of God! No way, no sir!

SO I HAD to share this story! It was an amazing feeling! I woke up with a jump. I was shaking, I still am, that dream was no joke. I also woke up singing one of Cece’s Songs, I will find the lyrics and post when I get to work. WOW!!! is all I can say!

The devil is always going to tempt, test and try you, but if you just stand your ground and stand on the Word, whew chile! You will BE ALRIGHT!!!

I don’t know what you are going through or have been through, but know you aren’t going through it alone!!! Know that God has a purpose for you and He is USING you!! Your tough or rough situations are not only for you to learn from but for you to LIVE through them and press on so that when you encounter someone along life who is going through it, you can share your blessing with them!!!

I leave you with one of the verses that will get me through tough times always:

Job 2:10
“Shall we accept good from God and not trouble?”

Gotta get ready for work! Loves!!!

*B*

I’d rather be…

May 1, 2008

Chillin at home on my couch or snuggled up in bed watching The Little Mermaid or Project Runway marathons rather than be at work! Want to know why?! Because of my allergies!!! They SUCK! 😦  *sniffle* *cough* – I’m almost slightly miserable! And I MUST get better before Saturday! Saturday is GOLD CUP!!!

Anywhoo! Since I’m at work and my head feels like it’s going to explode!!! I’ve been chatting on IM about silly boys and playing on POLYVORE!!! Here are two more sets I’ve made! I swear if I got paid to make these I’d me RICH! oh and I’d LOVE my job! 🙂

Agent Provocatuer

Dress You Up in My Love