I’m hanging up my 4 and 5 inch heels and ending my tenure in the mix of the party scene! I just can’t do it anymore! I was torn ALL day about going out tonight to celebrate my friend’s birthday. I knew I DEFINITELY wasn’t going to drink, for obvious reasons. I was also torn because of the dresses I have; they are all short, low cut, etc. I just went to Bible study last night and one of the previous lessons, like a few weeks ago, was modesty. It’s stuck in my head and I seriously evaluate each item of clothing I wear now! I was torn because I shouldn’t be spending gas money to drive to DC. I was torn because I had ulterior motives in wanting to go to this new spot; to see a guy…i know, silly. I was torn because, well, I was just torn!

So, I get there, we have our table, there is this GINOURMOUS bottle of Grey Goose and a bottle of Rose. It literally made my stomach flip flop just to see it there, illuminated by the light in the ice, ugh! Alcohol! I didn’t even want to drink the mixers; I got water. I was not enthused with the crowd; I just didn’t get it. I wasn’t feeling the music; I stay listening to my Gospel so all this new music makes my head hurt. I was also not enthused by some of the fashion choices of the men and women alike; do they own mirrors or have friends?!

Anyways, needless to say, I was soon bored and just wanted to jump in my truck, drive home listening to Cece and throw on my new Juicy sweats! So here I sit, safe, thank the Lord, in my cute apartment, watching senseless television – or is it watching me? –

I don’t know, I’m just over the whole party scene. It’s definitely not what it used to be. Which is a good thing because otherwise it would be harder to make my decision to stay gone from the mix. Plus, I just know there is something really HUGE that God is working on in my life and me running out every weekend to party etc is

I need to focus, listen, learn and do what God wants. I need to get back to doing the things that bring true fulfillment in my life; singing, writing, reading, focusing on my fashion career etc. AND I can pick up way more hours at the PT so I can continue stacking paper so I can make my next move with not a care in the world!

Anyways, that’s it. Just thought I’d share. I hope you all are having a fabulous and SAFE holiday weekend!




6 Responses to “It’s OFFICIAL!”

  1. Jamie Says:

    Girl…we all get partied out! Some sooner than others. One of best friend sis 28 and still at it, rolling all the way up to Greenville to these hood clubs, spending $300-$400 on just drinks and then she somewhere trying to get a payday loan to get her to the next week! Crazy. But I got partied out about 25 and don’t have no interest in going out to clubs. If I’m out of town and everyone wants to go out( which is a rare) I’ll go. I rather be chillin at the house!!

    In your walk in God, these are choices you must make and don’t you doubt them by any means!!! God will allow you to go to these places even though you are saved just so you can see that you have something better at home, Him. Sometimes you got the stomp with walk in Christ! I have some close Christian friends who I feel comfortable around hanging out with because we are on the same accord. Now, there will be lonely times and tempting times that you’ll want to be in “the street” as my Mom would say. But sit back say a prayer, open the Word for encouragement and take advantage of any young folk programs at your church that keep your mind busy. Sorry so long, but I know how you feel!!


  2. Autumn Says:

    Hey Sis!! I totally feel your entire post!!! Being in Christ and having the world pull at you is a never ending battle. It is also a million times harder when you are single and see the disappointing statistics of black men in the church, but hang in there….I really don’t know what else to say 🙂

  3. The Narcist Says:

    I feel you on the dead party scene. I went to bike week in S.C. and seriously wondered what i was doing there. What i don’t feel you on is hanging up the heels. Don’t take your frustrations out on your cute shoes! They’ve never done you wrong (except for the pain and corns that result from wearing them on a regular basis=)

  4. *B* Fab Says:

    @ Jamie – Thanks girl!! I’m glad you feel me! And I DEFINITELY do not doubt them! At all! I know I’m destinied for greatness so this is just one of those “childish things” I must put off in my walk with God! 🙂

    @ Autumn – Hey girlie! I’m chillin and hangin 😉 I’m really at peace with my decision; as my friend asked me the other day, “what took you so long?!” – -exactly!

    Also, my singleness is such a blessing! This time that I have to grow even closer to God without any unecessary distrctions is beyond valuable! I’m loving life!! 😀

    @ Narcist – LOL!!! hahaha, my fabulous shoes aren’t going anywhere, but I won’t be wearing them out to shake my booty in lol! I will still wear them; they are part of my fabulous shoe collection, I couldn’t abandon them, just the “streets”!

  5. innovative Says:

    Innovative says : I absolutely agree with this !

  6. Mountainous Says:

    Somehow i missed the point. Probably lost in translation 🙂 Anyway … nice blog to visit.

    cheers, Mountainous.

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