Drunk Driving…

…don’t even think about it! Yes, we have all done it before. Thinking to ourselves, yeah, I’m good, I’ll get home. Yes, I’ve said those words…nah, just give me my keys, I want to sleep in my bed tonight…etc etc. Well, I beg of you, PLEAD with you…DON’T DO IT!!!

I lost my 8 year old cousin……………..8 YEAR OLD COUSIN!!! TODAY ON MOTHER’S DAY! TO A DRUNK DRIVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY AUNT LOST HER 8 YEAR OLD BABY TODAY ON MOTHER’S DAY BECAUSE OF A DRUNK DRIVER!

A DRUNK DRIVER SMASHED INTO THE BACK OF THEIR MINI VAN AND TOOK THE LIFE OF MY 8 YEAR OLD COUSIN……….

I JUST GOT BACK FROM THE HOSPITAL…SEEING HIM LAYING THERE, LIFELESS, WITH STITCHES ON HIM, MY 8 YEAR OLD COUSIN IS DEAD, DEAD BECAUSE OF A DRUNK DRIVER….

JUST, PLEASE, RECONSIDER WHEN YOU ARE OUT DRINKING…USE SOME DISCERNMENT AND GET A CAB OR A DESIGNATED DRIVER.

I FEEL SICK.

Big things, therefore, HIATUS

I have a HUGE deadline coming up for this project that I’m working on! I’m so excited about it! Anyways, in lieu of said deadline, I’ve got to be on full-time grind mode! I shall be back once my project has reached completion! I can’t wait!!!

When I get back, I will post pics and stories of Gold Cup 2008! And I AM ULTRA EXCITED about GLOW IN THE DARK TOUR this Saturday!!! YAY!!! I’ve got my outfit!!!

Ciao!

*B*

I have to share!!

I just woke up from one of my most vivid dreams EVER!!! We all know while on cold/flu/allergy medication, dreams can be weird, and down right scary! Well mine went like this:

I was in some wharehouse type setting with a bunch of people I knew, young and old. There was this huge movie screen or something showing off the latest gadgets…stay with me. Anyways, one was this crazy robot, scary, life size thing that went around destoying the world. Well, a few of us nervously looked around at each other like, ummmm that’s not cool. No kid, NO adult needs to play that game. So then the next presentation was up but something weird happened.

This is where things got real crazy!

So the video screen or whatevr that was there vanished and there was all this commotion outside and it got real dark, real eerie. All of a sudden I felt this strange presence; not a welcome one either. A VERY uncomfortable feeling.

Again, there is all this weird commotion and people start getting scared as we hear loud “footsteps” coming towards us! Most of the people run but quite a few stand there, in shock and awe, like myself. One by one, the people around me start, i don’t know, fidgeting and acting weird, possessed almost. Their eyes got wild, their mouths open in fear, it WAS CREEPY! Still I couldn’t move! Finally it got it one of my friends standing next to me and I watched up close as this, this thing overtook her body! IT WAS SCARY! Again I just stood there…STAY WITH ME

SO then all of a sudden it gets quiet. I guess this thing is ready for me. All of a sudden, and thi sis where I started to feel pinned to my bed, helpless, unable to move, and it was the DEVIL!

He asked me why am I not scared. I told him I’m a child of God and God will never leave me nor forsake me! He laughed. I continued. I shouted at him Psalm 23. He continued laughing. I started singing my priase songs, whatevre came to me, mostly Cece Winans as that is the only cd I’ve been listening to lately.

So he stood there, while all the others were overtaken by the devil. I stood there, on the Word of God, shouting Bible verses, that I didn’t even realize were in my heart and singing praise songs!!! WOW!!! It was an awesome feeling. And don’t you know, that old devil just up and walked away! Hallelujia! You can’t mess with a child of God! No way, no sir!

SO I HAD to share this story! It was an amazing feeling! I woke up with a jump. I was shaking, I still am, that dream was no joke. I also woke up singing one of Cece’s Songs, I will find the lyrics and post when I get to work. WOW!!! is all I can say!

The devil is always going to tempt, test and try you, but if you just stand your ground and stand on the Word, whew chile! You will BE ALRIGHT!!!

I don’t know what you are going through or have been through, but know you aren’t going through it alone!!! Know that God has a purpose for you and He is USING you!! Your tough or rough situations are not only for you to learn from but for you to LIVE through them and press on so that when you encounter someone along life who is going through it, you can share your blessing with them!!!

I leave you with one of the verses that will get me through tough times always:

Job 2:10
“Shall we accept good from God and not trouble?”

Gotta get ready for work! Loves!!!

*B*

I’d rather be…

Chillin at home on my couch or snuggled up in bed watching The Little Mermaid or Project Runway marathons rather than be at work! Want to know why?! Because of my allergies!!! They SUCK!  *sniffle* *cough* - I’m almost slightly miserable! And I MUST get better before Saturday! Saturday is GOLD CUP!!!

Anywhoo! Since I’m at work and my head feels like it’s going to explode!!! I’ve been chatting on IM about silly boys and playing on POLYVORE!!! Here are two more sets I’ve made! I swear if I got paid to make these I’d me RICH! oh and I’d LOVE my job!

Agent Provocatuer

Dress You Up in My Love 

Polyvore!!! - Why I will never get work done again!

 I was browsing the net making my daily recommendations over at ThisNext when I happened upon this FAAAAAAAABULOUS site Polyvore!!!! It allows you to put together outfits from the products they have or you can add to your own vault by linking pictures of products you like!!! *Screaming and jumping up and down* It’s SOOOOOOO much fun!!! This is what I’ve done so far! I will be playing on it ALL day! and forever! lol!

Chillin in my P-Rod II’s

Nautical Days in my YSL Tribute Gladiators 

What to wear to the Gold Cup races

New Tat

Got it Saturday while visiting my lil brother down at VCU. He had his friend draw it out and now me and him have it — his is WAY bigger and is on his tricep, his huge body building tricep lol!; my other brother, 23, will be getting his in a couple of months.  Ofcourse my little 10 y.o. brother can’t get it lol!

This is my second tattoo, but the first one I got when I was 18 so that was 8 yrs ago! *shock* *gasp* I am getting OLD!!! Anyways, I thought it was going to hurt just a bit because my friend got hers on her wrist and she had tears in her eyes. But as he was doing it, it def didn’t hurt and i was contemplating what my NEXT one will be! I’ve already sketched a couple things I want so I’m sure I will be on #3 in a matter of weeks LOL!

Allow me to give some UNDIGNIFIED PRAISE!!!

And I’m going to DANCE and SING and SHOUT!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Stephen Hurd came to my church today for our 30th Anniversary Celebration!!! I AM SO GLAD AND BLESSED I DID NOT MISS THIS SERVICE!!!!!!! The Lord was all up and through the church!!! I can’t even write a whole blog entry so this is going to have to be enough!!! The Lord blessed us today with His servant, Stephen Hurd!!! With that, I must go off to my PT gig but check the lyrics to Destiny –I SO NEEDED THIS SONG!!!!!!!!

Destiny
by Stephen Hurd
My Destiny

What’s the plan that you have for me
The place you’ve called me to be
Some people call it destiny
Will you let me know

What’s the plight that
You’ve called me to
The thing I’m set aside to do
I trust you Lord to see me through
Will you let me look
In your heart

Lord hear my plea
Reveal to me
The mysteries
And the plan you have for me

This prayer is from me
Make known to me
The mysteries
And the plan you have for me

Destiny

Thank you (Thank you)
For showing me (For showing me)
And directing me (directing me)
To my destiny (To my destiny)

Tell the Lord Thank you
(Thank you)
For showing me (For showing me)
And directing me (Directing me)
To my destiny (To my destiny)

I know what I’m here for
Thank you
For showing me
Directing me
To my destiny
(4xs)

I know what I’m here for
I know what I’m here for
I know what I’m here for

Daydreamin and I’m thinking of…

…selling everything I own to go travel the world for a year(or more)!

Yup! I’m serious! I don’t like working, it’s boring. And I’m 26! which is like 30! And if I don’t go and travel and see “stuff” I’m going to regret it when I’m like whatever age and married with some anklebiters! I don’t want to look back and be like, “man, I shoulda done xyz…”

One of my neighbors I grew up with just got back from travelling the world for 3+ years on this AWESOME surf adventure! Check his blog here —-> Rahim’s 5 yr Surf Adventure seriously, check out all the pictures and what not. He wrote a book, got to meet some of the greatest and top surfers in the WORLD while on his travels!

This antsy feeling I have to just go came out of nowhere, but I am going to act on it one way or another. I’ve got to GO! GO and just GO!

I want to travel to all the undiscovered beaches or something in South America; live in a hut with no technology…well, maybe I’d bring my laptop and hopefully like 60 miles away there would be some big resort I could go and bum a signal off of to get in contact with my mom or something. Other than that, I just want to snorkel in some pretty water, relax on hardly populated beaches and just.be.

I would also like to back pack, but not through Europe. I have this fascination with South America, I don’t know why. I think that would be AMAZING! Travel through the Rain Forest! What a rush! Go to Carnival in Rio de Janeiro! Maybe live in Sao Paolo for a while. Whatever, I just need to go!

I thought about becoming a missionary so that I could spread God’s word and travel too, then I realized it was for selfish reasons–just to travel.  However, if God does call me to be a missionary, I’d go to wherever I’m supposed to go. I’d like to go to Africa too. I get these weekly mailings about the Sudan and the missionaries there and the wonderful affect they are having. Also, my church has a partner church in Ghana where the missionaries go - I’d love to be part of that missions team. Better pray about this some more.

Either way. I know 2009 I will not be living in the United States of America! Whether it be because I actually did sell everything and went backpacking/exploring/etc or I’m called to be a missionary, I just know in my heart I won’t be stateside come January 1, 2009.

The feeling is way too strong for me to ignore it! And I’ve had this overpowering urge to spend as much time with my family as possible. (My mom and little 10 yr old brother live 15 min. from me, I see them like 4 times a week!) I’m always going to visit my grandmother and this weekend I’m going to see my other little 19 y.o. brother at VCU in Richmond.

There is something to be said about giving up the worldly things –they aren’t ours anyways– and plus, they are just things! THINGS! I sold a bunch of stuff I thought I just HAD to have and you know what, ha! I don’t even miss them! items consisted of: high priced jewelry, designer purses, shoes etc. I don’t know. I feel like I am on this earth to do SOMETHING other than what I am doing now!

I am trying to live on purpose and once that purpose has been revealed to me…I’m gone!

Ciao! and thanks for listening!

*B*

 

Tag! I’m it!

The rules are as follows:

* link to the person that tagged you: Charles
* post the rules on your blog
* share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself
* tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs
* let each random person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog

*1*I am SO over Corporate America so I’m literally phasing myself out of it! I hate C.A - it’s lame and has nothing for me

*2*I recently cut some “friends” out of my life and I think it’s one of the BEST decisions I’ve ever made! Can’t stand fake people, ugh! Nor can I stand people who are supposed to be your friend then can’t live up to their end of the friendship, touché. That’s what I do though, if I’m over you, friend or lover, you get no warning, you are just cut off until you try and email me or call me and can’t because your emails are no longer able to get through…or I changed my number  childish? not even, if I’m done with you, I’m done, so all modes of communication are shut off.

*3*I am so focused right now on this “project” that I am working on! So instead of wasting a whole day at work NOT working, I’m working on my project AT work! Gotta love it!! Once this comes to fruition, I will gladly share details, but until then, only my mom knows what I’m doing

*4*Truth be told, I’m nervous about getting my tattoo on Saturday. Piercings never bothered me, I’ve had 7 - they are all out now. My last tattoo I got the day I turned 18 and it’s on my back and only took like 12 minutes - I was too chicken to get it colored in so it still remains not filled in, but it’s still nice. The only reason I’m nervous is because I’m getting it on my wrist and when my friend got hers she had tears in her eyes lol! I laughed then, but I’m not looking forward to the pain…blah!

*5*Sometimes I really miss him, but I so know it was for the best! I caught myself wondering “what if?” and I quickly brushed all that aside because my life is SO much better now!

*6*I also thought I was ready to date again, but the bammas I’ve come in contact with have made me change my mind to continue on my path of “me time” - which BTW I am most certainly enjoying!

*Bonus* My walk with Christ is getting stronger each and every day! The events that took place September of 2007 changed me for the best and now I can’t wait to see what the Lord has in store for me and how He will use me!!

**One of my favorite songs off of CeCe Winan’s new CD!**

Forever I’ll lift my voice

Forever Lord I’ll rejoice

Forever I’ll sing my heart out to You

I’ll offer all I have

And I want more to give

Forever my life is Yours to use

I am tagging my homie Sonya, Rural Glamour, Style Chile, *ray, Quarter Life Mocha Girl& BGI

 

High Heels and Shiny stuff

After a stupid day at court, I need to revive myself with something that just makes me giddy! Shiny things and high heels!!! That’s really all this list is about

See more of my Shiny things and High Heels that make me happy! list at ThisNext.